Wednesday, July 14, 2010

What's your name?

Yesterday, a waitress standing over me at a family restaurant introduced herself with a pleasant "Hi, I'm 'Memory,' and I'll be your waitress."  What an interesting name, I thought. It reminded me of an earlier encounter with a waiter whose name caught my attention.

Once, when I was out for dinner with a local family, a short, stout, waiter appeared at our table with a nametag that read "Jesus." Though pronounced in Spanish as "Hay-Zus," accent on the "Zus," this encounter with Jesus became a spiritual experience for me as I wondered at God's sense of humor in sending me a name-sake of His Son to wait on our table and serve us. But, back to "Memory."

I clamped my teeth shut and bit my tongue because I wanted to say things like: "Hey, Memory! Do you every forget?" "Is your brother named 'Forgetery?'" "How many gigs to your memory?"

With a last name like "Watt," I've had enough of the jokesters who think they are the first to ask: "And, how many Watts are you?" or "Watt's up?"

Names are important. People's names have great value to them. Sometimes, their name --it's good sound-- is all they have of their dignity left. Think of what it means to you when someone whom you love calls you softly by your name. Or, how angry you can become if someone --a sales person, for example -- misuses your name: "GERARD??!!"  A nurse you've never seen before stands there with her clipboard mistaking your name or mispronouncing it in front of an elderly lady knitting, two male figures reading "Mechanic's Illustrated" and "Today's Doctor" and four other people who all look up from their reading to see who will answer to that name.

It's Gerald," I answer. The nurse looks at her clipboard and says "I'm sorry." She slurs the words as she turns away and waves me back to the examining room like she's motioning to her dog. Somehow, I am annoyed.

Think of the last time someone was dealing with you in an off-handed way and suddenly asked, What's your name again?" That makes you feel like they don't really care what your name is or who you are. Otherwise, they'd remember. I wonder if "Memory" ever has that problem.

In the bible, the personal name of God is written YWHW but it is never spoken out loud. So sacred is God's personal name that not even our Savior used it when he taught the disciples to pray. "When you pray say, "Our Father, who at in heaven, hallowed be Thy Name." The greatest respect for God demands that we do not pronounce His name with casualness. The second commandment reminds us to enshrine God's name in holiness and be careful how we use it. God Himself remains a mystery whether we say "Lord" or "Father."

Every person, too, is a mystery and using an individual 's name just barely begins to lift the veil on the one whose name you speak.

I love the verse in the bible which says that at the Second Coming of Jesus when the dead rise in Christ, God will give me a new name, my secret name, the name for me known only to Himself (Rev. 2:17 and 3:12).  He will call me by that name when I see Him. He will call you by your true name, too.

God never forgets who we are.

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Vigilance, on tip toe, waiting.

I met a dog named Henry today. A poodle. White.  He was guarding the territory of the house I was visiting. He was not unfriendly, just reserved. Several sharp barks greeted me on my arrival . Later he regarded me from the arms of his owner. The pooch saw no need to try to make friends with me.  The feeling was mutual.

For forty-five minutes we both ignored each other.  Finally, the owner placed him on the floor and the animal proceeded to go off duty: He rested inattentive underneath the coffee table in the front room.

Vigilance is very Christian. We are waiting for the return of Our Lord Jesus Christ. We should be watching and listening for Him.

We should be vigilant for someone else, too.  "Be alert!," St. Peter cautions in his epistle, because your adversary goes about like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.  Resist him steadfast in the faith."

So we need awareness of how evil itself, roaring and hungry, could catch the lazy Christian off guard.

At the same time we should be ready to embrace the Lord Jesus when He comes in glory.

The dog, Henry, is a sentinel on the bulwarks of the family home, waiting and then warning the family of approaching danger.

Our Christian sentinels are those who remind us constantly of the signs of the presence of Jesus in the world.
Today, there are echos of Jesus in the words of his followers.  We see His traces and the footprints in the wonderful actions of those who believe in Him and live that belief.

 But we don't see Him, yet. We must keep watching and waiting. Arf! Arf!

Friday, July 2, 2010

Projects

Are there just some things that confound you no matter how determined you are to control them? I have a project that I've been working on and it just will not bend to my will to get it done. I've tried DETERMINATION. I'll stick at it until I get it done, I say.  Bread and water if necessary, I vow. With my body rigid and my spirit in a coma, a squeeky voice from somewhere inside of me says BRING ON THE BREAD AND WATER.

I've tried WAITING.  Waiting, like waiting for a seed to germinate seems the way to go at times.  Maybe my project isn't mature enough yet. So, I wait. For a seed to germinate.  For a flower to bloom.  A lump of crabgrass to appear on the parched lawn of my life. The ground is dry. I've prayed rain over it. Nothing.

I have searched for more information to find a deeper footing for what I want to build. It's manure in quick
sand. From additional reading and pondering I've got a lot of stuff but it all just sinks into the swamp.

Sure, there have been snatches of inspiration like the sun breaking through the morning fog. But then the clouds take over and I am unable to see enough to build something beautiful.

 By now you've guessed that I want to write something.  I have an idea, several of them but they lie there like mismatched socks in the drawer in my head marked "work."

It's not that this writing project is more than I can handle.  In fact, it's to be short and sweet. The shortness almost comes, it's the sweetness that's missing. That's why I was on my knees  today. Not for long, but I thought maybe that's what I have been missing, the prayer part. But, I can't remember a job I have prayed more over than this one.

Inspiration does come from the Lord and my heart is in this.  But I can't find the excitement of how to do it,  the "Aha!" factor. It's strange feeling enthusiasm and futility.  It's humbling. I am not going to give up, though.   Maybe, tomorrow.